Today I was thinking deeply around the subject of WEIGHT. I couldn't stop thinking about how much of an impact it has on our society, our views of what perfect are and how we want ourselves to be. I remember my first encounters with food, I was only a little one when I had my first sun dried tomatoe- my mom and dad didn't believe in baby food so they decided to feed me like a mini adult and considering my dad was a French chef... that meant Mini Gourmet too. I used to sneak into the kitchen late at night in my little puppy slippers and grab a piece of bread and some brie cheese from the fridge. I loved food from the start... and thats the truth.
To be honest for the first 10 years of my life it didn't matter to me at all- I was so happy being fat, I ate what I wanted and was happy. But as soon as miraculously I lost all my puppy fat, I started caring and comparing- caring about what I looked like and what size my jeans were and comparing myself to girls all over; on the tv, on the cover of the magazines, to my friends, to girls I saw in the street. And with this came sadness when I wasn't like my comparisons and a feeling of unworthiness when I gained a few kilos. How terrible is that? have you thought about that?! that we are labeled, judged and in desire of our bodies size. But you know what- thats not going to change, its how our society has ended up being. I care, you care, MOST care. I hope it'll change one day because there are people non like the people that are naturally skinny who can't lose weight quickly, don't want to lose weight at all or who have difficulties within their bodies that designable them from doing so. But, I don't think it will.
